I have not been training consistently for one. I'm softer than I would like to be. Blah blah blah blah blah. This weekend will inevitably be awesome, no doubt. Everything kettlebell is always epic. It's just that looking back, I have not lived up to my potential. I still love kettlebells. I always will. They changed my life. I just wish that they were in my life more often! And that is totally up to me. Hence, I'm flying to San Jose for another miraculous experience with kettlebells and the awesome people they attract.
I could blame my lifestyle. I've been traveling. Quite often I must say. That does not lend to gaining clients or building a website to promote myself. It doesn't even exist! Let's face it. I'm a slacker! If you know me, you may know that I have been a workaholic at times. Many times in fact. Though, this is not one of those times.
I'm actually nervous about this weekend. I'm nervous about getting through it. I feel lame at the moment. But, I know I'll pass. I'll make it out alive. My badassness is just not at the forefront at the moment. I sure hope she shows up by 9am Friday!
I may have been a little harsh by saying I haven't been living up to DD's standards, but maybe not. I have not done anything really wrong, all but not training consistently and striving to make myself better, as well as a better trainer. I'm struggling. That's all. I'm 29. Trying to figure out life and shit! Though, you would think such a straightforward thing like the way of the RKC would help me keep it together!
Hopefully this weekend will revive me. I need it. I don't want to take anymore steps back.
This is all temporary...